Don’t expect some profound and well written paragraph about how I know exactly who I am and how I found out all this stuff. Nope. I have no clue who I am. Some days I can’t even recognize myself. I used to think I knew who I was but right now I think I’m just a person who is trying to figure out what she wants and where she wants to go and what she really wants to do with her life…
Other than that Hi :) My name is Mercedes and I just turned 20 last week. I like music and I have a cat and a dog. I live in Florida and I like to write occasionally. There, that’s pretty much it.
I’ve learned that:
- I can’t spell or type everyday
- friends can try to understand but your heart will still hurt
- turning 20 didn’t make any difference
- if you miss someone there’s no remedy except that person being around
- miles mean a lot
- feeling special doesn’t mean you actually are
- you can’t wait for someone to read your mind, most people don’t have that ability
- I’ve spent my whole life falling in love with people I knew would never be mine
September 2, 2009
September 7, 2010
Seeing as both of those picture were taken before my birthday, I am technically represent 3 different ages. In the first I was 18, the second I was 19 and as I sit here typing this lovely paragraph I am now 20.
So how have I changed? Well honestly I haven’t the slightest idea…I’m not one to really notice change in myself unless the change is a conscious decision. I mean I lost a bunch of weight in the past year which is good but I still need to lose more. I think I am a tad more open to the world than I was before. I kept my heart guarded for a long time after getting hurt by two of my closest friends and in the past year I let the walls crumble and I fell for someone. He and I will most likely never be more than friends but I’m glad I could feel something for someone again. I also know now that some friendships aren’t meant to last forever and drama is never needed nor worth the time it takes. I haven’t really changed as much as I have become more knowledgeable and more aware of how things appear to myself and others and the world. I think I think a lot more than I used to and that has made a lot of difference.
Saw it on my dashboard and I thought the days looked interesting and I liked the first 30 day challenge I did so I decided to do this one :)
I think I have the BEST friends in the whole world! They mean so much to me, more then some of them will ever know. I don’t know what my life would be like or even who I would be without them. Despite the arguments, disagreements, miles, days, and all else between us, I love each and everyone of my friends. They are all different and all mean something different to me. To best friends, who I can’t even remember what life was like before I met you, to people I haven’t talked to in ages who I miss more than I can say, I thank you for continuing to put up with all my drama and boringness. And if we aren’t as close as we used to be or if we aren’t even friends at all, I’m sorry for whatever happened between us but I’m glad you were in my life at one point. Dearest friends, YOU ARE AMAZING and I LOVE YOU.
Depends on the bag…
My purse has nothing in it.
My backpack has books and notebooks.
My computer bag has my camera in it.
Dear Mom and Dad,
Seeing as it’s my birthday I think I should thank you for raising me and loving me these past 20 years. Despite the fact that you drive me crazy, annoy the crap out of me, and that I can’t stand your arguing, I still love you guys. You have always been there for me and I don’t know who I would be if I had different parents but I’m happy with you I am.
Your loving daughter, Mercedes
BACON ~ I swear I want to eat it ALL the time…It’s ridiculous :-p
This is a picture of a memory. Memories make me happy. Some days they are the only thing that keeps me going. Them and the hope of making more :)
I can’t honestly see myself marrying anyone I know right now. So I don’t know. Sure I can dream/think about it but I don’t really see that happening. All I know is that he (whoever he is) will love me for me and I won’t be the only one fighting for it to work.
Merci - Used to be Mercy but sometime in high school I started spelling it with an “I” and it just stuck.
Merc - 2 pronunciations Murse and Murk, the first my family calls me and its just a short version of my name and the second only one person calls me but I haven’t talked to him in a while…
Benz - With my name being Mercedes it’s bound to be paired up with this because of the car company -_- It used to get on my nerves but then I just embraced it and a few people still use it.
Sady - My friends in middle school used to call me this and then it just came back up a few years ago…
Lady - My BFF Angel calls me this and I call her the same…Just something we call each other.
Mer Mer - Taylor calls me this…don’t know why…maybe cause I call her Tay Tay?
Graduate from college.
Own a bar/club/venue.
Travel around the world.
Road trip around the USA.
Change someone’s life for the better.
